I have plenty to do before I come out of my home in the morning and a load more things that need to be done when I get home before the children get back from school, then all the clothes changes homework, snacks and general catch up conversation, for some reason my children need to know my ins and outs for the day, which is fine because I ask them about theirs.
Then there's bath times, story times bed time prayers and more tidy up time.
As I said before in the day there is choir practice, food shopping, visiting family and friends, yes it is important those are the people that don't have many visitors.
Just looking after the children PROPERLY takes up nearly all of my time on its own.
I'm not willing to sacrifice their care or take any more of my attention from them than necessary, when they're older and I'm preaching the word to all nations if they're aren't doing well people are going to question if I practice what I preach.
I believe God will see me through and I believe where he's taking me I need to be well disciplined (as in self disciplined, don't start gassing lol).
Saturday is and pretty much always has been my day of rest and believe me I'm grateful for it!!!
There's always speculation and arguments over when the day of rest is, I can't speak for anyone else, but saturday is mine. I go to church on Sunday and I have to prepare for Monday so there is no rest for me on a Sunday lets not even go there.
It's really offensive to be told you are required to do things because you don't work... I do work I just don't get a proper salary!
Hopefully when I get married he'll earn enough salary for the both of us lol I'm not even going to pretend I'm joking,God knows!
Honestly though I put slot into my home to make it comfortable for me and my children as well as guests and visitors.
I have a book called power of a praying wife by stormie omartian, in it, it says something sling the lines of the husband us the head if the home, but the wife is the heart. Call me old fashioned but I agree women know the difference between cream and magnolia, greige and beige etc. we have an eye for details. Some men have it too but never mind them for now.
We can pull it together make a house a home out if anything. That's what I do and I do it well if that's not ambitious enough, oh well. It's what makes me happy and my happiness determines how I live my life and treat others.
We are so caught up in social gain we miss the important things. How many women my age can knit or sew up the holes in socks etc?
How many if us have made our own curtain that are hanging proudly in our living rooms? Or do we run out to ikea and get the same curtains as everyone else? Do we throw away countless socks because there's a small hole in them?
Since when have these small but important thins become a shame? When since where they not considered an achievement?
If all I want to do is create a happy home does that make me a failure? If I'm happy to sacrifice my selfish dreams and ambitions so my children can achieve above and beyond does that make me stupid?
My grandma never learned to drive and to my knowledge worked in a factory until retirement, and I respect her for that! The majority I her children and grandchildren have been to university or had a good stable jobs for over 20 years, she might not have been a 'high flyer' but she did a real good job with her children, my aunt and uncles, who still keep in regular contact and are there for each other in a heart beat should anything I wrong or even right!
I watched her cook and clean and cater to my grandad and her family for years. I'm not saying she didn't complain (which is real funny to hear if you've got a spare few hours lol) but she was always on point and still is.
She and my grandad now have a beautiful home in Jamaica where they an relax after all their hard work and accomplishments it's not a life lived in vain.
I don't understand why no one thinks this life is acceptable even when it's written in the bible. People are too busy looking at material success to see spiritual success is the only way forward regardless of salary or qualifications.
I may look as though I have a lot to those looking in on my life but I actually have very little, I used to have too much for the wisdom I had! Even now as I go through my house I'm still throwing out and giving away which means to me the little I have is still too much lol, cryptic aren't I?
Basically I'm making room for the enormous blessing in expecting to receive. god says if you can be trusted with little you can be truste with much, I want to be so humble that my little seems like pittance in the eyes of others, then they will see the glory of God when my tiny seed grows into a massive tree. Like the mustard seed, which is smaller than nearly all other herb seeds but grows into one of the biggest trees there is. Google it, it's amazing!!!
Think about it...
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