Monday, 7 October 2013

Emosh

I feel totally bleh! I don't know if it's that time of the month but I know I need to reevaluate my life. Friends I consider brothers and sisters are slowing down my spiritual journey  I don't want to diss them but I know I'm going to have to give some of them up soon, I'm just scared I'll be all alone at the end of it.
Poor random men that talk to me are getting it in the neck, being completely honest I'm sick of being polite to them.
How dare you approach me with pepper grains in the back of your head? I don't mean to sound materialistic but you can tell a lot about a man by his shoes and I'm not seeing any impressive footwear!!! Even a fresh pair of Jesus sandals would be a bonus!
You can't even offer me anything I can't do for myself! And you expect me to compromise my relationship with God, for you, seriously?
Don't! How did I tell the man I wasn't interested and he continued to walk alongside me and my daughters shoving his phone in my face, lying about going to New York for 2 weeks. Not in them trainers mate!!!
It could only be the grace of God why I didn't rugby tackle his lanky a** into the main road!
He's not even the only one I'm sick of it I don't know if I've ever prayed so hard for a car!!!
(Rant over)
I'm going to have to cut myself off from my surroundings because right now the only voice I want to hear is Gods I'm sick of opinions and what people think is best for me and my children, I appreciate the concern but you don't know me as well as my Heavenly Father, you don't know the plans he has for my life yet you look at my circumstance and assume your point if view is what I need. No I need prayer and plenty of it!!! I don't know if half my circle pray for me as much as I do for them. It's not a tit 4 tat thing but it's an indication of my character 'treat others how you want to be treated' aka 'love thy neighbour as you love thyself'
So I'm shutting down, locking myself away whoever's there when I come back is a true friend indeed, whoever is not, I won't take offense.
God bless and good day x

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