Winter worshipper, summer sinner

For as long as I've been 'saved' I've been hardcore all for Christ in the winter and doing my own thing in summer!

Church is usually quite empty in the summer because that's when everyone goes on holiday and for me it seemed boring, no point going to see empty seats.

Last year I noticed my cycle and this year I decided to do something about it... I was going on a vacation from God I was gonna stick right with him and go even more, read more, pray more, worship more, you know the standard things that go out the window when the sun comes out. I'll admit  hoping next year I'm even better at it, more loyal to the core of my life.

 It wasn't easy I almost went off track, but the burning inside reminded me that I was lacking and surviving each day rather than living it.

Then tragedy struck sickness followed by a death of someone close to my heart, it was a serious jolt, if I wasn't leaning on God I could have slipped right into a deep hole.

Last summer I was on antidepressants because I couldn't cope with the responsibilities and frustrations of moving into a sh*thole basically alongside trying to maintain minimal disruption to my children especially with Angel having learning difficulties and finding school hard enough.

This year I'm dealing with a house full of 9 children and 3 adults, 2 birthday parties within 2 weeks, a stalkerish kind of ex boyfriend (that's a whole other blog) and the death of a loved one! Hand on my heart if it wasn't for the love and peace given to me by God I would be back on them pills.

I've even managed to get a little job covering staff leave.

Without God none of this would have been possible I'm glad I saw a kink in my path n resolved to straighten it. Nearly the whole world lives for the summer which is only 3 months out of twelve why focus on only 3 when you have 12???

My worship aka christian lifestyle should be all year round because God doesn't take holidays from watching over me.

The calm I feel I'm the midst of the storm is amazing! I'm beginning to grasp the meaning of keep your eyes upon God. As many people have said bring a christian doesn't mean life gets easy it simply means God will give you the tools to get through all circumstances.

And to top that off I've stopped smoking at one of the most stressful times possible. I pray I stay a non-smoker it's not something I enjoyed, it pretty much had a hold on me and I like to feel free so like the man, the cigarettes had to go...!