Sooo much has happened I wouldn't know where to begin! Unfortunately there's been unexpected deaths and sicknesses all around my family, it's pretty disturbing with none of them being 'saved' as such I don't want anyone else to be struck down without their ticket to heaven secure in their hearts.
It's been quite confounding that this gas happened I haven't been able to get up and travel across the country like I used to, to comfort and encourage everyone. Normally I would be distressed and depressed. There's a few reasons why I'm not but my favourite is last year when my Aunty was diagnosed with breast cancer and I was in severe financial difficulty and couldn't get to see her, my prayers still reached. My family still remained close, I was still kept in the loop and she totally kicked cancers ass!
It still hurts me a little that I wasn't able to hug and care for her even if just for a weekend, but I know my prayers were more help than I could ever be physically.
I've been in spiritual warfare for my little cousin, the kind I didn't know I was able to do. It was so real my heart began to beat like I was running when I saw what saw.
I've almost been drowned in self pity but Gods decided to bless me with knowledge, understanding and temporary rest bite from the battlefield . It's time to spend with my children, nurturing and raising them righteously. Time to ready myself for this calling I'm being prepared for.
Just before Christmas the devil tried one more attempt to get me out of Gods covering, but I'm here today pleased to say "ha, it didn't work".
Even when followed by all the bad news I held on to Jesus, the words of the bible the voice of God and I kept pushing through.
I was once told how you spend your January determines the rest if your year, if that is accurate I plan to spend January hopeful, to keep looking forward, but only one step at a time. If you watch your step you are less likely to stumble.
You know that song 'one step at a time sweet Jesus, that is all I am asking of you , show the way, teach me to take, one day at a time' ( I am aware that might be my own version lol forgive me for any errors, but I'm sure you get my point).
I'm not interested in the 5 and 10 year plan I don't know if I have that long I only know I have now and I'm going to live for Jesus today, tomorrow can worry about itself although if I witness it I will be prepared for it.
I've gone so hard in my own strength at 29 years old I'm already tired, so I let God do it all, he knows best anyway.
The last 8 day haven't gone to plan but they have been better than I could have imagined... They're a a scripture for that lol
Bare me and my families in mind and feel free to pray as I do and will for you
Have a God blessed year!
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