My brother called me at around 4am to say he was outside, random because seconds before he came I woke out of a deep sleep.
He had saved his life!!!
This 18 year old boy was so distressed I just wanted to grab him and hold him until he was healed.
In all honesty the night was completely God ordained, I was supposed to go link my man friend and I fell asleep if I had gone out I would have been too tired to wake up when I did.
Many people have asked why I chose to move back to the intercity because it's so 'crime ridden' but looking at the bigger picture if I wasn't here on a bibical named street would I be able to open my doors to people in need?
God sends the light into the darkness! Even if I'm not the brightest light, living the most righteously if I'm only a bright light in some circumstances I'm a light none the less, in the intercity where it's most dark and in need of light.
As I walk through the streets nowadays even in my not so righteous state I know I'm different I can almost feel my aura glowing on my surroundings. I feel more pleasant towards people, I'm weirdly happier within myself. I smile for no reason which might be why people stare at me like I've got a big spot on my nose lol.
I can't help but help! These last few weeks I've decorated and pulled my life back into order (still a work in progress but way better than before) and all I've been saying to God is I'm getting what I want but I feel an emptiness inside in comparison to how I felt when I was doing your will and not my own!?
When I was doing his will I only wanted to do my own, how confusing does that sound? You could say I'm a typical woman always changing my mind.
I used to take people in that needed somewhere to live when I had a spare room in my old house. They weren't the best experiences if I'm honest but I still open my home to those in need, some only need a drink and a chat, some need toilet roll, some need a bed for the night. If I can provide it I'm in a position to give why should I not?
I'm blessed and I appreciate it enough to bless someone else out of what I have.
I need so much (in my opinion anyway, doubt God sees them as needs), but there are always people who need something so little, something I may over look and take for granted.
I've been in need many a times and those who could have helped me chose not to, I'd they had chosen to bless me I might have avoided some dire situations.
I'm not confirming these people I'm taking those experiences and using them for good.
My son got to see the possible outcome of being in the wrong place, with the wrong people for things you needn't be dealing with, the young man happily spoke to him to give him some sound advice! Stabbed and arm broken for a little weed, it's not worth it. I lived weed for many years and it's not harmless, it is a drug that distorts your thinking and can put you in dangerous situations. Whether selling or smoking it's illegal for a reason.
It was also a chance for my brother, who is running from his calling, to develop his ministry skills. It was amazing to hear him talking and testifying to this young man about a better way of life and the consequences of his lifestyle.
Moral of the story is God is good!!!
He never ceases to amaze me and I love the way he uses me even after all the times I've failed him.
Scripture says taste and see that The Lord is good, I feel like I've just eaten the sweetest pie ever and I don't want to be a gluten but I want more :)
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