So it seems the name for my blog has become inaccurate I'm not actually single and I haven't been for a couple of months now.
I was introduced to a man who is soooo sweet! Too much if him and I may need to visit the dentist.
It's very new and very confusing to me, relationships aren't really my strength and Godly relationships are a complete mystery!
He isn't a Christian, which potentially could be a problem. Our relationship is what the bible states as unequally yoked.
It may not always be that way because with God anything is possible.
I had a fairy tale scenario in my head and reality doesn't quite match up so I spend a lot of time questioning things and analysing situations which to be honest takes so much joy out of the whole set up.
He has issues and so do I! A few people have said it's not my responsibility to take him on the way he is, but if it was the other way round would it be fine?
To me the bottom line is I'm a praying woman and a child of the most high God so is it right to say I shouldn't deal with my relationship with that in the forefront of my mind? Prayer changes everything can I not pray him 'perfect'?
I see so much potential in him and I also see that everyone else has gotten frustrated and given up with him. God wouldn't do that and I have the love of God in me so shouldn't I use it for good?
As you can tell I'm full of questions constantly swimming in them almost drowning if I'm honest.
I don't know if he's the one... He made up his mind when I bet him he was going to marry me and enjoy family life. I heard that and though get this weirdo away from me!!!
That was completely new to my ears and he actually sounded like he meant it. I tried to find every reason possible why I couldn't be with him but I was very gently drawn to the place I am now, where I can vaguely picture what he sees.
I'm desperately deciphering messages and visions I've had from God in the past.
The one thing I should do I seem to be avoiding 'pray & fast' there lies all my answers, but they guy is a feeder he works in a food shop so he's always bringing me food. In almost as many weeks I've put on 8lb!!! Not good because I work hard at losing weight.
He compliments me daily and everything I do seems to amaze and amuse him (not sure whether that's a good thing).
He deals well with my outbursts and mood swings, which don't seen to bad even though I'm off my meds. I take them when I remember, not very often. I don't suffer from the withdrawal headaches I did the last few times I came off.
He's helpful and the girls live him and his daughter, my son however is not impressed... To be expected he's been my main man for a long time now.
He's super affectionate, I found that so suffocating to begin with, having someone always want to hug kiss and touch you. I'm warming to it now even public displays are a little less painful. I've never been one for open displays if affection they were embarrassing and awkward for me I would avoid them like the plague!
Bottom line is there are pros and cons to this relationship but I'd rather not find out the hard way....
